Its MAY already..

my life really felt like an abandoned ship. real misery in a real world..no LOVE, no encouragement. Yes, i believes GOD, but im just a pitty human that really desires something that out of our reach like we usually do. for my own sake, i tried a lot of therape to get hold of this situations.unfortunately, for even more i avoid this, its coming back again and again..i really where im heading to..where else im so pointless at the moment. i just got back from Perth and my treatment went well but my heart stil hurts..

lastly guys, deep inside my heart all my believes fading away as much as i trust god..i really misses her..really want to hear her voice again..I LOVE U Xana..